Thursday, September 28, 2006
It’s the end of the quarter at work, which is our crunch time to get all of our renewals in. At the beginning of this month, I was at 36% renewed, which is horrendous. Through some crafty phone skills and pleading and begging with my clients I was able to jump to 73% by the middle of last week. And after that stroke of luck I am now at 91%. Not bad for this being the first time I’m ever doing this. Since I surpassed my goal of 90%, I am rewarding myself with a nice massage. Hell, I was going to reward myself with that anyways once the quarter was over, but this just makes it extra special.
So sorry to my three readers for neglecting you this week. I know some of you depend on me for a little bit of entertainment to get you through your day. And can I just say that I’m going to miss Ms. Rachel while she is vacation in Africa for 10 whole days! Who am I going to g-mail chat with for two weeks? Kiah, that means you need to sign on more often and amuse me. Does that mean I’m going to actually have to do work in the next couple of weeks? I shudder to think of that. I will strive to survive, but it’s going to be a long 10 days without my pal. Have fun in Africa Rachel. Take lots of pictures of lions and elephants for me. Try not to get malaria.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
I just finished reading The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. In my earlier post I mentioned how I was currently reading this book and how good it was. After finishing this book, I still cried at the end even though I knew what was going to happen. (I really am going to work on reading a book from beginning to end and not skipping ahead because I am robbing myself of the experience to just let the plot develop naturally.)
I really enjoyed this book and found the story to be satisfying and fulfilling. The book is about a man named Henry who has the ability to time travel. I know you’re thinking science fiction, lame, but it’s not a science fiction novel. This novel looks at time and how our future, past and present is always interconnected with us and how time is always constant. Niffenegger explains Henry’s ability to time travel as a genetic disorder, which I sometimes feel isn’t satisfactory enough, but then the story would be about how he is what he is and not about his life.
Henry cannot control when he is going to time travel or where to. He usually travels to the past and to places that he has been to, and occasionally he travels to his future. This is where things can get confusing. As an adult he time travels and meets his wife, Clare, when she is a child. But remember, he is currently married to her in his present. (This is where the whole concept of time travel boggles my mind and I can’t quite wrap my mind around this phenomenon because I then feel like there are multiple dimensions or parallels, however you want to look at it. But I don’t believe Niffenegger views time in that way, and just believes that time is continuous and it’s all connected.) So he meets his wife as a young girl and you see how their relationship develops through the course of time.
It’s a very moving story and looks at true love through a different perspective. Does Clare fall in love with Henry because she knows that in her future he’s her husband or was it only natural for Clare to fall in love with Henry because time put the two of them together? When Clare and Henry finally meet in his present, he does not know who she is, while she has known him all her life. She is already in love with him and has been waiting for the day for them to finally meet and he is just learning who she is. Here there relationship develops all over again as Henry falls in love with Clare.
I love how this story jumps back and forth between times. It can get confusing, but it all makes sense in the end. Niffenegger also tells the story between Henry and Clare’s point of view, which I think is interesting also. It enables the reader to see different perspectives over the same incident. I love how she uses time as a character in itself. All Henry wants is to be able to stay in his present and not be an interloper throughout time. Henry makes an interesting point about how he only has free will in the present and he doesn’t have free will when he is time traveling. Even when he knows his future, he does nothing to change or alter it because its done, it has already happened.
This is a great book and I encourage others who like to think on another level to read it. Cause this book will definitely force you to think.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
I love reading other people’s blogs. I also love taking ideas from them to create new posts. Kiah posted this on hers. So I’m going to copy it and post it on mine. Well actually if I were really lazy, I would just copy word for word what she wrote, but then that would be plagiarism and that’s not right.
Ten Random Things You May Not Know About Me:
1) I am anal retentive when it comes to loading up my dishwasher. Dishes have to be loaded a certain way. And if you’re dumb enough to do my dishes for me, I will hover over you making sure all the dishes are put in its proper place.
2) I love the movie Titanic and only really like watching it during the Christmas season cause it reminds me of Christmas. My reasoning behind that is because the water is really cold and it reminds me of how cold it gets during Christmas time.
3) I have to do laundry once a week. And the times I don’t do it, I feel like my schedule for that week is out of whack, and I won’t be able to get things correct again until I do laundry the next week.
4) I have a weird OCD about numbers. I like things to be even. Like if I’m eating grapes or berries, I have to eat them in an even amount or it freaks me out.
5) I have ADD when it comes to reading books. I usually have to read two or more books at one time because I get bored of reading just one book. And once I start reading a book, I usually skip to the end of the book to see if the ending is worth me finishing the book, or because I like the book so much that I can’t wait to find out what happens at the end.
6) I used to suck my thumb until I was 10 years old.
7) I watched my first porn when I was 11 years old with my best friend Christa. Let me just say that was a very enlighten experience.
8) I think its very unattractive if a guy doesn’t know how to drive a stick shift. If I can do it, then a man definitely should be able to.
9) I started off college as Engineering major. That lasted about one semester before I realized that I hated Engineering. I then changed majors to government cause I used to want to work on The Hill, and then I changed it yet again to Communication.
10) I love musicals. My favorite musical is West Side Story, but I love them all including Oklahoma and Seven Brides for Seven Brothers. But I hate The Sound of Music. I just don’t believe the hills are alive with the sound of music.
Nine Places I Have Visited:
9) San Francisco
Eight Ways To Win My Heart
1) Be confident with yourself. Nothing is a bigger turn on for me than a man who is confident with who he is as a person
2) Have patience with me because I can be quite difficult at times and tend to think I am always right.
3) Being thoughtful and considerate.
4) Honesty. I cannot be with someone who lies to me or lies to themselves.
5) A man that can cook is extremely hot.
6) Someone who has a great sense of humor and isn’t afraid to laugh at himself. Because sometimes you just need a good laugh.
7) I like a man who is spontaneous and is willing to try and do new things. Someone who can spice up my life cause I hate when things get monotonous, and I need variety.
8) And of course a girl loves some presents every now and then. Doesn’t have to be anything big, but some flowers or a book would be nice.
Seven Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
1) I want to go skydiving.
2) I want the white picket fence scenario. A family, lots of dogs and all that other stuff that goes along with it.
3) Live my life to the fullest with no regrets.
4) I want to live over seas for a few years so that I can experience other cultures besides my own.
5) Find a job that challenges me and makes me happy.
6) Continue on my quest to always better myself and to instill that value in my children.
7) Learn how to play the piano
Six Things I Am Afraid Of:
1) Disappointing those who rely on me or who love me.
2) Deathly afraid of ghosts. I can’t even watch scary movies that are about ghosts or monsters cause I will have nightmares for weeks.
3) Spiders. It was after the stoopid movie Arachnophobia that started all of that.
4) Dying before I have accomplished all my goals in life.
5) Breaking a bone. I have never broken anything and I am scared that it will be ridiculously painful.
6) I’m deathly afraid of tornados. Every time there is a thunderstorm at night, I’m afraid a tornado will develop and I will be swept away while I am sleeping.
Five Things I Don’t Like:
1) Stupid and ignorant people.
2) Pickles. I can’t stand the taste and smell of them.
3) I really hate all those “Girls Gone Wild” Videos. I think the girls who participate in those videos are idiots and have no self-respect for themselves. Those girls give women a bad name cause guys think all girls are sluts and whores.
4) I hate people who don’t know how to merge into traffic. Good lord, get some balls and just freaking merge into the fucking lane. It’s not that hard.
5) Even though I want children of my own, I don’t really like kids. They freak me out. They are little, they smell, and they make a lot of noise. I just don’t know how to relate to them.
Four Ways To Turn Me Off:
1) Lie to me. Once I catch you in a lie, I will never be able to trust you again.
2) Bad teeth. Go to the freaking dentist and get your teeth taken care of. If you have health insurance you should get your teeth cleaned on a regular basis.
3) If you don’t like animals, then forget it. I love animals and plan to have a bunch of them when I grow up.
4) If you don’t have manners or the common courtesy to say please and thank you.
Three Things I Do Everyday:
2) Talk to my Mother on the phone.
3) Check my e-mail.
Two Things That Make Me Happy:
1) My dogs Bear and Pepper. I love them to death and know that all I need to do is get a smooch from them to brighten my day.
2) The smell of clean towels.
One Thing On My Mind Right Now:
What I should do for the rest of the day.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
I originally started off with two frogs. Best Friend Ever had named them Fred and Wilma. I called them Big Fat Frog and Little Fat Frog. Everything was fine and dandy, but I started to notice that one frog was exceptionally bigger than the other. We just thought that Big Fat Frog was eating all the food. But he was just abnormally big, so after awhile I started to do some research on the internet and found out that Poor Big Fat Frog had dropsy, which is the swelling of the body. I tried to give him some antibiotics but alas, Big Fat Frog succumbed to dropsy. Poor thing.
I was worried about the other one, which I renamed Dropsy in honor of his fallen brother. I moved him into a gold fish tank since I was pretty sure that his old tank had really dirty water. He seemed to be doing a lot better in the gold fish bowl, and I just changed his water every few days since there is no filtration system. But he developed this annoying habit of croaking all the time. I think he was lonely. I felt bad that he was living in this small gold fish bowl, so I brought out his tank again. I figured he would like the space, but he freaked out all the time. He kept trying to jump out, and I had no clue what was wrong with him.
I mentioned this to BFE. She had three frogs in her lab that no one was using for experiments so she said she would bring them home. Those fuckers were like 2x the size of Dropsy, but he seemed to like them. They actually would have cuddle parties all the time. They liked to get in a huddle and just lay on top of each other. Group orgies all the time in casa de Kim.
Things were going good for awhile, and then one day one of the Fat Fuckers up and died. With no real warning or signs of sickness. I probably had him for about a month maybe a little longer. I was upset, but what are you going to do. About a month after that, I started noticing that the biggest frog of them was getting these weird bumps on his mouth and the blood vessels in his toes started to swell. BFE said that he had frog herpes from all the cuddle parties. I guess I should’ve investigated more after I noticed those spots, but he seemed fine and he was still kicking all the other frogs out of the way when the food came around.
I also started noticing that one of the other frogs hadn’t been eating his food. This caused a little concern, but again, I didn’t think too much of it. So last week as I’m about to go test-driving, I look over at the tank and see that the frog that hadn’t been eating was at the bottom of the tank belly up. I was shocked and devastated. The poor guy had the other two frogs surrounding him as if they knew he had died and just wanted to protect and be near him. So I scooped him up and got rid of his remains.
Of course I tell my Mother that my frog died, and she kept nagging me to clean their tank. I guess I should’ve listened to her. Cause yesterday when I got home from work and dinner, the Fat Fucker with the weird bumps and legions passed away. I managed to kill two frogs within a week of each other. And poor little Dropsy is the only one left. So this weekend, I have to clean my tank cause there is definitely something wrong with the water. It’s probably some sort of bacteria and the filtration system just isn’t strong enough to handle all the algae.
Its really depressing to know that I can’t even keeps frogs alive. Especially the three frogs that were in the lab because they literally lived in a tank that barely had any water, was always murky water and was there for the sole purpose of running experiments on. I thought I was saving them from that life, but they probably suffered more at my hands because I bet their deaths were slow and painful. I hope that Dropsy will be a trooper. I’ve determined I’m done with aquatic pets.
Monday, September 18, 2006
I actually didn’t even finish watching the movie, that’s how much I did not like it. Maybe if I stuck with it, I might have enjoyed it a little bit, but I highly doubt it. So I’m very disappointed that I didn’t like it, but I can see why others might.
On a brighter note, I saw The Hunt for the Red October and really enjoyed it. I’ve seen all the other Jack Ryan movies and this one was probably the best one out of the series. Although I do love Clear and Present Danger. I have tried to read Tom Clancy’s novels before and I just can’t get into it. His jargon can become too technical and there is always a zillion subplots to follow that I get lost in the maze. But his movies translates well on film. I even enjoyed Ben Affleck’s Jack Ryan in The Sum of All Fears.
I love how this movie is supposed to be about a Russian submarine that goes missing, but all the actors who play Russian don’t have Russian accents. I think Sean Connery is a terrific actor, but he will never be able to get rid of his Scottish brogue. He may look Russian, but once you hear him speak, its almost silly. And I could never live in a submarine. I am deathly claustrophobic and seeing how enclosed everything was I felt suffocated. Good thing I never have to be on a submarine.
Overall, a good movie. And I hope that Ben continues to play Jack Ryan in future movies cause I still think he’s dreamy.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
1) A book that changed your life.
I had to think about this for a while. I have read a lot of books and I really wanted to pick a book that either defined me or altered me in some way. I came up with Where the Red Fern Grows by Wilson Rawls. I read this book in middle school, and this was the first book where I ever cried from reading it. This book is about a boy and his two dogs. I’m an avid animal lover, so already the book got me. This was the first time that I got emotionally involved with a book that it brought me to tears when I was done reading it. After reading this book, I could appreciate a good story and the intricacies of telling it. My love of reading only grew more from there.
2) A book you’ve read more than once.
Besides all my trashy romance novels! Hands down this would have to be The Godfather by Mario Puzo. I love the movie, but I’m a bigger fan of the book. The story is beautiful and really captures the essence of that time period and that lifestyle. Mario Puzo does such a brilliant job of humanizing these characters and making you feel empathy for them. Don Corlone is not just a mafia chief, he’s also a father who loves his family and will do anything to shelter and protect them. I can read that book over and over again, and never get tired from it.
3) A book you’d want on a deserted island.
Hmm, this is a tough one, cause you want to pick something that you know you won’t get sick of reading over and over again. It’s got to be interesting enough to always capture your attention while reading it. I picked The Complete Works by William Shakespeare. I’ve always loved William Shakespeare. My favorite play of his would have to be Romeo and Juliet. I love Shakespeare so much, that I even took a lit course in college. I picked his Complete Works because Shakespeare does it all from comedies, tragedies, to histories. I have so many works to choose from and depending on my mood I will always be able to find something of his to read.
4) A book that made you giddy.
I’m such a dork. All the Harry Potter Books by J.K. Rowling. I love them!!!! It took me a long time to jump onto the Harry Potter bandwagon. All my friends were reading them in college, and I thought they were seriously lame for reading a children’s book. It was during the summer, and I just couldn’t find anything interesting to read. And since all my friends wouldn’t stop raving about these stupid books, I decided to go to the library and rent one. After reading the first few chapters, I was hooked. I literally could not put the book down. I read the first book in about a day, and went back and rented the next 3 all at once. Harry Potter brings back my imagination and makes me giddy with memories of my youth. I love how each book grows off the other one and you can see the development of the characters. J.K. Rowling isn’t afraid to make each book darker and I applaud her for not sugar coating any of the deaths. But I am scared cause she is in the process of writing Book 7 and I will be deeply upset if she kills off Harry.
5) A book you wish had been written.
I’m going to be vain, and say my book. All my dreams and hopes of ever writing a book are slowly being diminished. I’ve always wanted to write a book and I believe I have a point of view to tell, but is it realistic of me to say its ever going to be written. Highly doubtful.
6) A book that wracked you with sobs.
The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. I’m notorious for reading a beginning of a book and then skipping to the end to see what happens. It’s my instant gratification and the fact that I can’t read fast enough to my liking. And I really wish I had read this book from beginning to end, but the story was just getting too good for me to not skip to the end. So I read the end, and it had me bawling for a good half and hour. If you’re a sucker for love stories, then this is such a good book. It takes a unique look at relationships and really captures true love. I’m still reading this book, but I can tell you that I will cry all over again when I reach the end.
7) A book you wish had never been written.
It’s really not fair of me to put this book down since I haven’t read it since my senior year of high school. Actually I never even finished reading it because that’s how much I hated it. The Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad just bored me to death. I can’t even remember what its about. So maybe if I were to read it now, I wouldn’t hate it so much, or maybe I still would. I don’t care to ever pick it up and try again.
8) A book you’re currently reading.
I answered this in question 6. I’m also reading The Chronic of Narnia (I spelled Chronic on purpose) by C.S. Lewis. Let me tell you, it has been a struggle to read this book. I’m only on the first book, and I just can’t get pass it. Maybe it will pick up soon, but I haven’t picked it up lately. The back-story behind these books is that C.S. Lewis wrote this series to educate young children about Christianity. So I love the references to The Bible and I love the fact that I can pick up on it, but it’s a real slow read.
9) A book you’ve been meaning to read.
Too many to list. I just keep buying books and I have a stack that is just waiting for me to get through.
10) Tag 10.
Unfortunately, I only know of one other person who has a blog that reads mine. That would be Kiah. So if you’re reading Kiah, you’ve been tagged.
Can I just say that I love the new Justin Timberlake CD?! Its not what I would've expected from him, which makes me love it even more. I am still in the process of listening to the entire cd, so I haven't yet picked my favorite songs out of it. The songs I have heard, I think are amazing. This CD doesn't have as much angst as his last outing, but Justified was all about his breakup with Ms. Britney Spears and he had to let her know how much she hurt him. After I listen to it a bit more, I will better be able to describe how much I love it.
Monday, September 11, 2006
I can only write about my particular experience of that day. I would never dare to assume anyone else’s. I was in my 4th year of college, and I was sleeping in on that Tuesday, cause I only had classes Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I remember hearing the phone ringing constantly, but I made no effort to pick it up because I was sleeping and my rule of thumb is to never pick up the phone when I’m sleeping. I just assumed it was sales people calling earlier than usual. I finally get up around 10ish, and before I even turned on the TV, I called my Mom at her office. Her co-worker picked up the phone and asked if I was watching TV, and when answered no, he was insistent that I turn it on.
When I turned the TV on, I honestly had no clue what I was seeing. It didn’t seem real. It didn’t seem like it was actually happening. I couldn’t comprehend what I was seeing on the screen. I sat there for a while watching the news, slowly getting dressed. I was by myself in the house. My parents were at work. I couldn’t take being alone anymore watching this unfold on TV. I got into my car and I remember thinking it was such a beautiful day. The sun was out, clear blue skies, perfect weather. I drove to my Mom’s office cause I wanted to be close to her. When I got there everyone was just standing in front of the TV, absolutely silent. It was painful to watch. Some of her co-workers had tears streaming down their face, others were just watching with their mouths hanging open. Everyone had the same look on their face though -- disbelief, horror, pain and anguish.
I don’t remember how long I stayed at her office. When I got home, the first thing I did was call my brother in California. He apparently was the one calling us that morning, cause he had just heard the news about the Pentagon. He was trying to reach us to make sure we were ok, but my parents weren’t at work cause they had a meeting at the bank, so they also weren’t picking up their cell phones, and I wasn’t answering the house phone. We just sat on the phone, watching the news together. I remember seeing the second tower collapse and couldn’t believe that we were watching this happen on live TV. It was surreal.
And after that, I don’t remember the rest of my day. I’m sure I watched the news all day along with everyone else in the US. And I can’t really describe how I felt either. I think I was just shocked by it all, almost numb to it. I felt sad for all the lives that were lost, and the panic and mayhem that was created. And beyond that, I just don’t remember. And so I guess that’s why I felt it was important for me to write about 9/11. It’s only been 5 years, and yet I can’t even remember how I felt. It’s not a day that should be forgotten. Too many lives have been sacrificed since that day, and we should never forget that.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Can I just say that I love Nip/Tuck! Nip/Tuck pushes the boundaries and really makes you think about issues from a different angle than you normally would. Within the first ten minutes of the show, you have Christian Troy having a threesome with a Mother/Daughter tag team, and Sean attempting to have sex with his pregnant wife Julia. And if you watch Nip/Tuck they leave little to the imagination. I am constantly surprised that those scenes get pass the censors.
Besides all the gratuitous sex scenes, the show really does tackle the psyche of the average American person. The underlying theme of the show is the need to alter oneself to become more beautiful to fit in with what society deems to be the ideal. While Christian embraces that lifestyle, you can tell that while Sean loves what he does he also loathes himself for caving into society’s pressures and demands. In this episode he mentions how 70% of their business is doing breast implants and liposuctions and only 30% is reconstructive surgery. He tells Christian that in the next few years he wants to flip those percentages, while Christian’s response is “I like doing tit jobs.” So typical, and that’s what I love about it. I love the contrasting dynamics between Sean and Christian.
Which brings me to my next point. I believe the main theme of the show is the need to feel connected to someone. Christian fucks a new woman (sometimes two at a time) on practically every episode and yet he’s not happy. He knows he lacks that connection, that intimacy with another person, but is unwilling to open himself up to trust someone. He witnesses Sean and his daughter rehearsing a scene from her play, and is so deeply unsettled by it. He seeks a therapist and describes his feelings of being alone and how he doesn’t have what Sean has. Sean, on the other hand, has a family, has a wife, and still he is searching for that connection with another person. He finds out that Julia withheld information about their unborn child and feels betrayed by Julia and loses his trust in her. He feels so detached from her that he calls the phone sex lady that he operated on earlier. Constantly this show looks at relationships and how they define us and make us who we are.
And the biggest relationship on this show is between Sean and Christian. As Christian is talking to his therapist, he begins to explain how significant his relationship with Sean is. He relates that with Sean there is no pretending, he doesn’t have to massage Sean’s ego, he trusts and leans on Sean. And she explains that Christian already has an intimate relationship in his life and it’s with Sean. That is the reason he treats women like shit because he already has that bond with someone. Of course Christian is now afraid that he is gay and secretly in love with Sean, but I don’t believe that for a second. I just think he truly loves Sean as any best friend would. They’ve known each other for years, Sean knows him in and out, and Christian can’t really say that about a lot of people. It will be interesting to see where Nip/Tuck is going to take this storyline, and I can’t wait to watch it.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Yay! The new season of Nip/Tuck starts tonight! I cannot wait to see the antics of Dr. Christian Troy. He is so yummy. I wonder if him and Kimber will get back together this season, or will he just break more hearts with that beautiful smile of hers. And will Julia confess to Sean that something is wrong with their unborn child. And did Matt and that shim really shoot that girl's dad? So excited for this season to start.
Monday, September 04, 2006
The Groom and I
My friend Sean and I had a prime seat near the dance floor, so we got to see all the action. When Jeff and Jessica took their first dance, it was really emotional. I had a great view of them and they were just staring into each other’s eyes lost to the world around them. You could see the love they have for each other and it was such an intimate moment that I felt like we were all intruding on their special day. But I guess that is the whole point of having a wedding, to celebrate with your family and friends and to share that momentous occasion. My lovely date Sean
I’m a sucker for weddings. It gives me hope to see two people pledging their life and love for one another in front of loved ones and God. These two have their whole lives ahead of them and they have made the decision to build a life together. That is a huge commitment. I am always amazed that two people can love one another that much and know that this is the person they are meant to be with.
My friend Jack
During the ceremony, the rabbi was describing what Jeff said to him about his feelings for Jessica. Jeff called Jessica an inspiration and that she inspired Jeff to become a better person. When I heard that, I got all choked up inside, and I thought to myself Jeff has got it right. What a great way to feel about someone. I can only hope that one day I will meet someone who inspires me and who I inspire back.
A toast to the couple. May your life be filled with laughter, happiness, comfort and love. When you two come across hardships, trust in the love that you share to carry you through it. Lean upon one another for support and remember that your love inspired the two of you to come together as one.
Friday, September 01, 2006
Overall, I was completely bored through the VMA’s. There was nothing exciting or shocking that happened. The last good moment on the VMA’s was back in 2003 when Madonna and Britney shared the infamous kiss. That was three years ago! Since then the VMA’s have been blah. I think this was the first time in years that I watched the entire show. Usually I get bored after the first hour and turn on something else.
The only good thing about the night was the delicious food that Kiah made. I truly enjoyed the chicken wings and the homemade French fries. And of course it was nice to hang out with people. I don’t get enough socialization at work and now that I’m living by myself, I don’t get any real socialization when I come home. So it was nice to be around people and talk about subjects that matter like why the show sucks so much, and why Jessica Simpson looked a bit thick, and yelling at the winners to make their acceptance speeches a bit more coherent and a lot shorter. I need to join a play group. I’m like an over-hyper puppy that has way too much energy and if I don’t get rid of the excess energy I will start to destroy things. Seriously if anyone can recommend a hobby for me, I would greatly appreciate it.