Expectations

I should learn by now never to expect anything because most likely they will end up disappointing you when they don’t meet your expectations. It’s so hard to not get hopeful or excited about something, and you start to think in your head that it could actually happen. But then reality brings you back down to earth and you’re left with a dream that’s fading into the mist, until you no longer dream about it anymore.

Its funny how you can build something in your head, almost to the point where you are living it and it seems so wonderful and so grand, but then you wake up and it’s not quite what you had pictured. In fact, it’s so far gone from what you had imagined. Somewhere in the back of your head, you almost expected this outcome, but was just wishing for a different ending. I just kept thinking, maybe this time it will be different, maybe my chance has finally come.

It’s hard to lower expectations because of course you want the best for yourself. You don’t want to think that you’re not going to get what you desire, so instead you allow yourself to be optimistic. It’s very frustrating when you keep getting disappointed over and over again; especially when you should know better. And I know better. I know better on both counts and need to not fall back into the trap.