Bleary Days and Restless Nights

I am spent and have had no energy or motivation to do anything. And it’s clearly starting to show in my personal and professional life. By the time I get home from work instead of going to the gym to work out, all I want to do is plop down on the couch and just lay there. I don’t even want to watch tv because that requires focus and I have been living off of microwave dinners for the past two weeks.

I attempt to go to bed early, but find myself sitting in front of this computer looking up random shit on the interwebs. By the time I pull myself away from the putter, it’s close to midnight and I’m too tired to read my book. And I really want to read, but again that requires attention and focus.

Some nights I toss and turn, getting very little sleep. Waking up every hour upon the hour, calculating how many hours I have left until the dawn. By the time I do fall asleep, I am bitter because I know I will have to get up within an hour or so. Other nights I sleep well and still find myself hitting the snooze button for over an hour.

By the time I get to work I am tired, slow and groggy. I try to focus on the task at hand, but my ADD kicks in and I lose my train of thought. I find myself having to reread the same sentence at least five times in a row before my brain processes the information and comprehension settles in. I am doing the bare minimum to get by, hoping that tomorrow will be a better day.

I come home and the cycle continues. I have no idea what’s sucking up my energy. All I know is that for the last few weeks I have been exhausted. I need something that will kick my ass back into gear and reenergize myself. But for now I am going to crawl into bed and hope that I feel refreshed and awake in the morning.

Bet Me

Bet Me by Jennifer Crusie was a cute romance novel and exactly what I needed to get me in the mood for hunting season (otherwise known as dating season). It was also a nice transition from reading dark, depressing novels.

I didn’t love the first book of hers I read, Manhunting, but I was willing to give her a second chance since she has written so many romance novels. And I really enjoyed Bet Me.

This book stars Min Dobbs, who just got dumped by the man she was dating because she refused to sleep with him. Her friends cheer her up by taking her to a bar when she overhears her ex making a bet with the gorgeous Calvin Morrisey that Calvin cannot get Min into his bed within a month.

And so the chase begins. Min is fuming over the bet, but agrees to let Calvin take her to dinner as payback. They both realize they cannot stand each other and leave it at that, but fate or chaos theory intervenes and Cal’s and Min’s paths seem to circle one another.

It’s certainly not a fairy tale romance, but despite themselves Min and Cal are attracted to one another. Min views Cal as a Beast rather than her Knight in Shinning Armor coming to rescue her and Cal surely does not see Min as a damsel in distress.

I think I enjoyed this book better than her previous one because this time her characters had a little more depth. And for once the protagonist wasn’t some rail thin bombshell, but a regular woman who has curves and insecurities about her body like most women. And Cal helps her realize that she is a beautiful sexy woman and loves all of her.

I know that all romance stories need some sort of conflict, which generally tends to be one person chasing the other or both characters ignoring their strong feelings for one another, and geez this sure explains a lot about my skewed view on relationships and romance in general. I think it’s perfectly normal to put up with a guy that ignores you or treats you like poo because I’ve been reading this stuff since I was a little girl.

Deep down inside, I’m just like Min waiting for some handsome devil to sweep me off my feet so that we can live happily ever after.

Quarterly Survey

Sorry for the lack of posting on here. Life has been busy in Kim’s World and haven’t had much time for this here blog. As much as I like writing this blog, sometimes I feel like it can be a chore or pressure to get more posts out (all internalized in my head, mind you). I’m a freak, I know. Since I don’t want this blog to feel like a chore, posting may become sporadic for a bit while I live my life, but hopefully I’ll keep good notes for fun or mentally disturbed posts!

Anyways, its time for my quarterly End-of-Quarter Survey/Meme! This Meme is sponsored by the Lame-O Md Terrapins playing in the Not In Tournament Tournament (such a dagger, nubbins U Made a Bad Choice is in the Dance, and the real Maryland isn’t. The Turtles better win tonight. I have a wager on this one!)

One Word:

Yourself: Optimistic

Your Partner: Non-existent

Your Hair: Shiny

Your Mother: Nerve-racking

Your Father: Cheap

Your Favorite Item: Bob (battery operated boyfriend)

Your Dream Last Night: Ex-coworkers

Your Favorite Drink: Lemonade-Ice Tea

Your Dream Car: Acura MDX

Your Dream Home: Spacious

The Room You Are In: Office cube

Your Ex: Complicated

Your Fear: Regrets

Where Do You Want to be in 10 Years: Content

Who You Hung Out With Last: Lisa

What Your Not: Brave

Muffins: Banana Nut

One of Your Wish List Items: Open-toed pumps

Time: Not Enough

The Last Thing You Did: Got off the phone with my friend Kevin

What are You Wearing: Sweater and Jeans

Your Favorite Weather: Balmy

Your Favorite Book: Harry Potters

Last Thing You Ate: Beef Stew

Your Life: Rollercoaster

Your Mood: Upbeat

Your Best Friends: Loves em

What are You Thinking About Right Now: Workday Over

Your Car: Love her

Your Summer: Beach

Relationship Status: Ready

What is on Your TV: Blank screen

What is Your Weather Like: Windy

When is the Last Time You Laughed: With Kevin

Too Much Alcohol + Kim = No Good, Very Poopy Day

This was me all day yesterday. Freaking tech support making me take a shot with them and stupid AE who kept buying me drinks all night. Man, I cannot party like I used to and especially on a skool night. I blame old age. I literally had a headache all day and could not focus. I almost feel asleep at my desk. Last night I just laid on the couch and did nothing except eat greasy food that my tapeworm Len requested.


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The Road

I have finally finished reading The Road by Cormac McCarthy! Geez, it has been a slow start for me regarding reading books. I’m just too tired when I get home and The Road had such dark undertones that I didn’t like reading it at night.

The book follows a man and his young son in a post-apocalyptic world where some unknown event has crippled mankind. The world is covered in ash, civilization is gone with only nomads and scavengers to roam the land. The man and his son have only each other to rely on and must navigate the road to reach the southern shore.

As I mentioned it took me awhile to finish reading this book not because it wasn’t good, but because it was a dark novel and I was afraid of bad dreams at night. But, wow, what a profound and stunning book. It was like an epic poem; the writing was so beautiful, the prose so striking. Even with the gloomy feel, the novel was not bleak at all. The love between the father and son was uplifting and embodies the greatness within humanity.

Even in this desolate world there is still hope. They have seen the viciousness and brutality of mankind and yet still believe there are good people out there. Instead of giving up and succumbing to despair, they continue to push forward and survive.

I found the father/son relationship so touching, it broke my heart; their utter love and devotion towards each other is so moving. Not once do they give up on each other. Its so breath taking and raw. I cried for them and I prayed, prayed that they would make it.

This book was a masterpiece and I’m so glad I decided to pick it up and read it. McCarthy is such a gifted writer. He captures the best and worst that this world has to offer and really makes you think and believe.

Busy Worker Bee

Well it looks like my Type A personality has continued to pay off (and seriously, I have never been a Type A when I was growing up, what happened here?). I just got promoted last week into a Sr position! Yay me!

My job duties pretty much stay the same, but I do get a bump in salary and bonus potential. So that’s exciting.

It was awesome, during my review with my manager, she informed me that she recommended me for a promotion. I was going to ask the same thing, so the fact that she did it on her own made me feel really good. It shows that they have been recognizing my accomplishments and believe in my work.

And although this still isn’t my dream job, I am happy with all my accomplishments and recognition thus far. It’s gratifying to know that at least one area in my life I am doing well.

So as usual, I will continue to push and strive for more. It’s the only way I know how.

Paint by Numbers

Besides going to Vegas, I decided to take a week off from work. I was bound and determined to paint my room and figured it would probably take me that long to get it done. I knew I wanted something that would be relaxing and soothing, but I also wanted the colors to be modern and sleek.



I’m a huge fan of color and hate to see boring white walls. I’ve always loved the tranquil calming effects of blue, so that was the palette I knew I would work from. I originally wanted to work with a sky blue that would really brighten up the room, but couldn’t find the right shade of sky blue.



I had seen some darker blues that I really liked, but was afraid that if I painted my entire room with that color it would make it look really small and dark. So instead I decided to go with a dark bluish purple accent wall and have the rest be silvery gray. It turned out really nice and unfortunately the pictures don’t do it justice (you really can't see the pretty gray color)



And surprisingly it only took me two days to finish it. I also had help in the shape of my Dad, my cousin and her friend. I’m sure if I tried to tackle this project myself, my room still wouldn’t be finished. Now I just need to accessorize.